within a dream I found the book of our fate..
mysterious symbols that were hard to translate..
refering to a KEY that opens the gate..
and get us into a limitless figure of 8..
where your happiness which I try to create..
is creating my happiness that makes you in a happy state..
and keep on growing till we forget how did we initiate…
The Limitless Figure of Eight…
a mute silience disappeared in the blank day,,,
stayed to figure out what they’re trying to say…
it was a sound of laughter fading-in the form of “no way”,,,
with undefined whisper shouting an endless echo of the word “stay”…
inside a car with no brakes within the high-way,,,
holding a map of shattered glass trying to run away…
I felt the electronic motion inside my heart,
when i found myself reflected inside her eyes,
it was like a dream of newborn child,
how can it just .. could be a tear she cries !
a tear that cured a hidden pain beyond the mystic star,
and inspired a charming breeze into a hunted life,…
Thoughts within my mind changed to feelings,
looks like fear…
I tired to leave and run away,
before they come and find me here…
I failed to run or even hide,
each place here seems so near…
My mind and heart were took apart,
and my eyes gave a tear…
From here i start to realize,
that things are so much clear…
Just let them out one by one,
through a drop of tear…
Believing there might be a better place for me to stay, I decided to leave and find the way…
First thing that i thought about was to find someone who can share…
But the thoughts lead me to be alone, as this one may stop me or may not meet all my needs…
And then I thought about the way, too many ways, too hard to choose, and maybe there is not enough time to make the right choice…
So I made no choice and just left this place…
I took nothing with me, just the beliefs of there might be a better place…
I did not like to walk, so I get into the boat, and sailed through the oceans, the oceans of my thoughts…
And in the middle of the oceans i felt something is missing, maybe i really had to find someone who can share…
Or maybe this one is in the place which I believe it is there…
So I had to get through the passing time, the shouting wind, and the smashing rains, they thought they can stop me, but they did nothing, just strengthen my beliefs…
At the end of the way I finally found someone there, waiting for another one to share, so now I am not alone, and in a place which even better than my imaginations…
And this one let me know that I was having a compass, it’s placed in the Beliefs, the stronger they are, the better they can lead…
But I did not know that it’s not the end of the way, it was just another start for the end of the endless way…
Now he has a family so he had to build a space ship to fit the family in the space days, Harry and Ishtar helped him to get this ship done in 7 days, and Harry was the lucky one who took the space boat…
They have set for the first space trip on this ship, and waited for the space day to leave…
When they are finally there, Caldera insisted on having the Oort Cloud meal in her parents’ home, actually it was tasting so bad to him, but you know he had to eat, and kids had no problem…
He got out into the space, alone thinking about his life, talking to himself “was that the right decision ? or I have just rushed out, now I’ve lived 1 year with this alien and things were so strange, it was like the hidden Earth beauty appeared in this period, they are not that bad, at least they are the same as me, oh but I had 4 kids from her, so maybe it’s not good to think about that now, maybe i need to recall the good memories, and I have to accept the alien as it is, and you know what, now I feel like Alien”…
We are awake in a place where we can see each other, something we share in feelings, touchable and sensible, deep and true, we can see it but are we really there ? …
Voices from somewhere were calling for someone to be there, we looked at each other, believing we are there, and we waited for any one of us to stand and respond, but unfortunately we do not have the proof to let them know we are there…
The place is quiet and dark, the lights are turned off and the voices are not allowed, but still we can feel the voices which whispers slowly in a pleasing tone that is quiet enough to keep the natural rules…
We now are just waiting for the thing that is waiting for us to be happened, but before you leave just let them know that we do not need the light to see, and we do not have to talk to be heard…
We have something inside that makes the voice loud without the need of the Sound, and makes the place bright without the need of the Light…
It took my life in a small bag, and through it in the middle of something
thinking it can be stronger, but only thinking that it was
took it back from the legend, it was written down with the spoon of the broken knife
but noway it’s still mine and no more ways can lead to no where
take me back to the hill of concious and lead my bag but never lose it
it was but no more, I can smell where exactly it were born
not so bad, I know I am glad, be with me, and again never lose it
in the eyes of back-head, in the word of nothing, in the out of magic, and what ?
it must be knowing what can cause it…
ashes of life, stream of nice times, changes and states, stairs and yes again
come back with me as long as it hadn’t…
Time is passing, and the present is just a block from the blocks used to build the past, the blocks that build the stairs that lead you to your future, the future that you have never reached…
Waited so long for the future to be reached, and time is still passing and blocks are getting higher, and one day you sat over the edge, and had the deep thinking about where you live, till you realized that you live within your future !
If the past is being built, and the present is just the blocks which you are leaving for the past to be built, then you must be within your future !
But wait, that is not the future which I was looking for, if that is the future then my life is many steps away from my vision !
Yeah, you are really far away from your vision, because you have not take the time to get off the stairs and take a look on these blocks which had been built, the blocks which represent some statistics of how your life is going, and which let you expect where your life may reach, expect it from the rate which you have been through in the blocks of your own past…
you have just keep waiting for the future which you thought you have never reached, and have not realized that it is the place you have always been through…
Time was passing, and the present was the blocks that build the past, but they were not just the blocks of your own, they were mixed with related blocks from others whose blocks are related to yours…
You did not have the complete vision to all the blocks which had been built, but you were always on the top, the top which cover the bottom, the top which is not clear enough for you to judge…
And now you are lost in your thoughts, have no idea of what to do to make a fair judgment, the blocks are put together building a rigid sphere between you and the truth, the truth that can hide for a time, but not forever…
You have waited enough and now you had the chance to get through the sphere, and reach the place where the truth can never hide, the place where the future exists and can affect the past…
If dreams are not coming true, and each place you reach doesn’t suit you, you try to hide but still you are there, and where you hide you think you are alone, nothing is for you, and you think that being happy is just a start of a new series of very sad days…
Okay, we agree, sad days are coming, so, what is the worse that could happen ? you will be sad ? be sad…
And now, the sad days are ending, and happy days are rising, and you turn back to your dreams, believing it can be true, or having a new dream, that may also come to be not true, and then you begin to welcome the sad days, which seem to be coming…
Okay, we agree, sad days are coming, so, what is the worse that could happen ? your dream won’t come true ?
Here we stop. Not you who decide for your dream to come true, by that what you do is just a destruction for your dreams and happiness, and you can be sad for a while, but it’s not a style for a life, it’s not that bad to be sad, but it’s that bad to force your self to be sad, you be sad it’s your own problem, but remember you are not living alone, you are living with your self, which may have the chance to be happy, and you who stop that chance…
He was searching for a new love, and was sick of Earth girls, so he waited for spaceday and bought some galaxies and glittering stars, and mounted a small fan on his boat and then sailed to the Venus, knowing that the real beauty is there and he could find his best match out there…
He arrived to the Venus and turned on the fan, and took a journey searching for the Beauty, but he was not able to find any beautiful female Alien, and was wondering why its known for the Beauty, but he did not lose the hope, and kept searching and surfing, but he could not find the Beauty which he was searching for, they were just Okay…
Then, he told him self “Why don’t I just try knowing them, I’m gonna loose nothing…”
They were all nearly looking the same, so he choosed any one, and the one was named Caldera , he gave her one galaxy and glittering star, and started talking with her, and once they got into deep conversation, he was to experience a new meaning of Beauty where it lies inside the heart, through the eyes and the flowing smiles, and then they lived moments of silence, and then he told her nicely “si ytuaeB thguoht I yaw eht ni epahs uoy edam ytuaeb neddih lacigam rouy tub ,depahs era ew woh ni si ytuaeB thguoht I”…
Finally, he fall in love with her, and took her to Earth, and married her after parents acceptance, and he had a nice family and got from her one boy Harry, one girl Kerly, one male alien Ishtar and one female alien Julien…
Your mind keep on collecting puzzle tiles all the time, maybe in a short time you find them unrelated to each other so you can not form any picture from them, so you just ignore them, but actually nothing can be ignored easily, maybe you think you have ignored them however they are kept somewhere, sometimes amount of tiles is too much that you can not even receive any more, so you try to rest, refresh your mind, clear your thoughts to just live moments of peace…
But one time you were standing alone in this peace, and you found some tiles passing by your memory, so you began to search for related tiles and put them together, the more you search the more you reach a clearer picture, till the picture is clear enough for you to create missing tiles from your own experience…
Then you look at the picture, and it amazes you ! maybe it forms a new Idea and sometimes a new Dream, or anything that can add a value to you or others in some way…
Do not leave these tiles ignored in your mind till they expire ! every time you are living a moment of peace “if you had the chance :D” try to collect them out by writing them, drawing them or even talk to someone who is close to you and can bear it :D, then try to form them in your mind till they reach a picture, and even if they have formed a picture that holds no meaning, at least you have a piece of your thoughts organized to help you forming another picture :)…
If you can’t understand what I’m trying to say, or can not get what I really want to reach, that’s great, as I don’t like to make all things appear so clear, I want you to share me with your thoughts, not making it closed to me or just related to my personal life as you may not be interested, so you may read something that is mysterious then you try to add words from your mind or assume things or unserstand it in your own way which may differ with others perspective…
And maybe you need to add comments to let me clarify what you have missed in case you are interested and have the time, I know that I’ve said that I’m not writing for specific aim, as each single post or category has its own aim…
Aliens, It’s about negative sides we face in our normal treating with others, and I’ve chosed aliens for two reasons, first they are weird and sometimes what others do is just weird, other reason that I’m already loving them, and you don’t have to hate people who deal negativly, you may just hate how they deal and aim to change it to positive…
Your self is part of you, not completly you, when it’s in need for something, you think for a while or maybe for a time if that exactly what can fit you…
And where your mind is located ? in your self or within you ??
And your heart is still there, where you think it’s placed ? or it’s just a home for all ??
Back to what your self was in need to, it’s alwyas led by your feelings, but your mind who make decision for deeds…
What if you who are part of your self, then this self is going to take the lead, and your mind may lose the chance to decide for the thing that fits you…
Your mind is neurally connected to all of you, so your mind knows exacly what can suit you, then this self should just take a room within you, and take no steps until it got its permision from you…
So, your self must be placed within you, and you got to know what your self is in need, then you must use your mind in a good way, and this self must know that it’s not alone in this place, to just do what it needs when it needs to…
Still your heart is there, where you think it’s placed ? or it’s just a home for you, your self and your mind ??
Bleeding I was when she looked at my eyes
My hands was so close but ‘ve just gave cries
She came from no where, searching for some care
My heart was her stairs to rest and sleep there
But they came forced her to leave how they dare !
Don’t just they have feelings or eyes that can stare !
Her eyes were speaking, but earless they were
My eyes are still tearing, but still I can’t share
I wonder if there someone else can give care
And let my guilt out for not being there…
Another Spaceday,
charged his boat, took his mask and sailed to Jupiter, and was searching for the popular café shop Callisto to have some rest…
He found some green smoke blowing from a shiny place, then he said “oh finally, it must be Callisto”, so he parked his boat and took a swim over the jupitter to the café, and sat on the non-burning area, as the burning area was smelling like fries aliens, plus he doesn’t own a burning finger…
He was setting with a kind alien, they ordered three cafés on the smell, and asked the alien “?aera gninrub eht ni tes uoy t’nod yhw”, alien whispered “Zees elianz àar sõ sad, zey burn zer vengar and zen zay keeb kraying ovar ziz hill az zey kan not draiv zer bötz bak hôme wizawt ziz vengar”…
So, he felt sorry for them and took burnt finger aliens to there home and sailed back to the Earth where the routine and boring days…
She got into the train waiting for a place to reach, a place where she thinks she could be happy, but she knows that there is alwyas a split of rails in its way, and the fog is always hiding her destination, and she never knew which way leads to her desired place, and she also can’t choose the way.
So, she was just sitting, hoping for the desired place…
After a while, there was no more fog, and signs were clear enough to let her know that the train took the other way…
She fall into the ground and kept screaming and crying, and tried to escape but there was no way out…
The train arrived to the undesired place, and she had to leave the train and accept her fate.
It took time to get over her sadness, and it took more time to begin to like the place…
Years passed and another train of dreams were about to leave the station, she took no time for thinking and she got into the train hoping for the same desired place…
Events were similar, but this time when the fog went away, and signs began to be clear, they were showing that she is in her way to the desired place…
She kept screaming, crying from happiness, and jumping from joy, and she can’t wait to to reach the place…
The train arrived, and there were peaks of joy, and nothing can describe how she feels.
It took time for the joy to go away, and it took more time to begin to dislike this place…
More Years passed, and she retunred back to the first place, she loved it more than anything else, and was just passing by the other place trying to prove that she knows where she could be happy, but was always failing…
Things you thought you could understand
The more you go deep, the less you can stand
The story belongs where the truth doesn’t lie
There is something inside, that whispers the word try…
Beliefs were so strong, strong enough to be true
But facts kept showing, that nothing belongs to you
Your nights were just fading
And lights were just sailing
But the sky wasn’t blue
You know you can wait
The hope will not fade
It’s not your own gate
It’s the meaning of fate
Still the moon may just shade, and take you away
And all what was ending, will end the right way…
It was spaceday, so he took his DAP, some weird music playing, and jumped in his space boat and sailed to the Mars, while he was moving there he found two disturbing aliens shouting:
1st Alien: Et ez za Kingz
2nd Alien: No, Et ez za Writingz
1st Alien: No, Et ez za Kingz
2nd Alien: I sed Et ez za Writingz
then he paused the weird music, and told them: “weiv fo tniop nwo sih morf ti gniees si eno yreve dna ,nioC a tsuj si ti , sneila yeh” <- backwords
then they stopped shouting and smilled and then produced strange sounds of aliens laugh…
